We all know what true love is, right? You’ve probably been to a wedding or scrolled through Instagram and either heard or read someone quoting the Corinthians:

“Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.”

This one of the most beautiful, pure and honest quotes but for me, it was also one of the most impossible.

In the past, whenever I thought that I had (or was in) true love:

  • I rarely felt patient (which resulted in limited no kindness).
  • I social media stalked and would never admit it, but totally envied his ex girlfriends.
  • I had to boast about how wonderful my relationship was (because it was a total relationsh*t).
  • I dishonored everyone and everything that I felt I had to compete with to get his love, respect, validation, attention, loyalty, honesty, empathy, etc.
  • The relationsh*t was self-seeking (mySELF seeking to be chosen, to “win,” and to engage in “please don’t abandon me,” codependency.
  • Insecurity in the relationsh*t = being triggered, which always led to disproportionate (& ultimately humiliating), anger.
  • To say that “I kept no record of wrongs,” is like saying that the sun doesn’t set.
  • Instead of “not delighting in evil and rejoicing with the truth,” I delighted in anything that affirmed my low self esteem, catered to my fears, and increased unnecessary drama. I also avoided the truth at all costs.
  • protected, hoped, trusted in and preserved the image of the relationship that I chose to believe I had.
  • Love ALWAYS failed because I was continually failing myself.

I honestly felt like I was in true love; I knew I was. In fact, I felt like I couldn’t get any deeper in true love. The above bullet points were all normal… right?

I’ve been thinking a lot about true love lately – what it means, how to manifest it, how to attract it and how to maintain it once you find it instead of engaging in self sabotage and becoming bored because you don’t have to work for it.

Is what the Corinthians, Shakespeare, Sinatra, John Keats, Rumi and all of the great poets, musicians and movie makers so beautifully expressed even attainable in life outside of the bliss of a wedding or the delusion of social media?

Are we trying to live up to some unrealistic ideal?

I honestly can’t say that today, I’m free and clear of the above checklist. I have my moments, BELIEVE me. We ALL do. So…

What is true love?

Can it exist beyond the intimidating and seemingly impossible standards that we are so intoxicated with the idea of but fail to embody and apply?

How can you identify, attract & KEEP true love?

I’m not going to attempt to redefine true love or rewrite artistry of the past here. I don’t need to because those writings and works of art are not only beautiful, they’re true and you can’t edit the truth.

What I want to do is make all of the preconceptions about true love a little less intimidating impossible and a lot more attainable.


I used to be obsessed with true love quotes, stories, songs, poems, The Notebook, tv shows, etc., because as long as I could buy into the idealization of true love, it was like taking a sh*tty insurance policy out on acceptance. It gave me a license to accept that I’d never find true love, which made it that much easier to excuse and accept the behavior of f*cktards (my former f*cktard self included). It also made it that much easier to pedestal the idea of.

And once you idealize and pedestal the idea of something, you create unattainability and impossibility (despite your claimed craving for connectivity). The playing field is no longer even.

Here’s what I’ve learned and what I wish I had been told about true love:

  • In the past, I’ve excused my mistakes in the name of  being “blinded” by true love. It’s interesting because I hear a lot about true love being blind and “I was blind because I was in love” blah blah, but never once in the Corinthians or in any of the great love poems, stories, etc., is love ever referred to as being blind. So if love isn’t blind, WHY did I always become blind to the red flags? Because I was in love? Well, no. You can’t claim impairment due to something that’s referred to as the ultimate healer and glue of humanity. True love is not blind – triggers are blind, trauma is blind and unresolved grief & hopelessness is blind. Love is the most clear and visible thing we’ll ever have because it sees despite and beyond the dense fog of trauma. You’re not blind because you’re in love, you’re blind to red flags, pink flags, disrespect, emotional unavailability and the truth because of your past trauma and triggers. And because they haven’t been dealt with, they’re in survival mode and survival mode is always blind because it HAS to see what it wants to believe in order to survive.
  • True love isn’t chaotic, trauma is. And if you equate chaos with “love,” that’s not true love, that’s unresolved triggers that no relationship (except the one that you need to build with yourself), will ever heal you of. 
  • True love is not a triangle. In the past, for me to feel that electric, passionate and true love, I had to inhabit a triangle. I only felt like it was love if it was me, him and something or someone else – whether it be another girl, his ex, his job, his family, his issues, addiction, commitments, travel, friends, etc., that I had to essentially compete with and be chosen/”win” over. If there was no opposing force that ignited a need for competition, I didn’t feel the fire. In the end, I was never chosen, I never “won,” and with my now 20/20 hindsight, there was never a prize to win because I didn’t value myself. And what does a person who doesn’t value themselves do? They chase after the “true love” of those that don’t value them either. True love is not about being chosen or winning and if it was indeed a triangle, Johnny Cash would not sing “because you’re mine, I walk the line.” He would sing “because you’re mine, I walk the triangle.” True love is LINEAR. It’s a clear, mutual, intimate and beautiful line between two people. Decide now that you’re done living in triangles and avoid those that get off to doing so.
  • True love is empathy and empathy is true love.
  • True love will always seem vanilla to those with low self esteem. Give it a chance. If you don’t feel attracted to a nice guy, before you call it quits, see if it’s just because he’s dealing with you on a linear level and you’re still chasing triangles. If your self esteem is low, you’ll always claim to want linear, but ultimately end up in triangulation. Stop equating true love with emotional threesomes. Just because that’s what you may have been subjected to as a kid, you can decide NOW to be the adult that you needed when you were younger and break free from the pain. Make the decision to stop contributing to your own misery and pedestaling what you’ve convinced yourself is easier to fantasize about than actually go after.

You can find, embody, emanate and attract the kind of true love that we all read about and wish for.

Stop trying to take a take a leap. All you need is a step.

I truly love each and every one of you 🙂

x Natasha


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This article speaks to me on a whole new level!! Thank you once again for giving me the clarity I need!! ??


Thx babe! Glad it helped 🙂 xoxo


Once again you write about just what I need to hear. Thank you and I love you! You have been my saving grace through a traumatic heartbreak and I could never thank you enough for putting your experiences and advice out there for all of us who are where you have been. Because of you I know I will get over him eventually and find the relationship i deserve, thank you for giving me hope 🙂


Thanks Heather! Happy it helped 🙂 Thx for allowing me to feel less alone in my experiences and emotions. You have more than hope, you have an entire tribe here that is backing, believing in, supporting and loving you. You go girl. xx


You have NO idea how much you’ve helped me the last few months. Every time I’ve needed a boost or a reality check, a new email with a relevant blog post would be in my inbox. Thank you so much!


Happy it helped!! 🙂 Thanks Alison! XOXO


This was the perfect thing to read today. Trauma is chaos and for years it was mixed up in my false ideas of love. Along with obsession over true love which eluded me since I didn’t love myself. True love is only a gift we can give ourselves. I write this after deciding to walk away from a man who I honestly believe does love me, has loved me a long time, and genuinely feels deeply for me. But he mixes up love with trauma which is a game I will not play again. Not with anyone.


Going through something similar. It’s hard to walk away but my person couldn’t appreciate me and I deserve more (not more games), so I had to cut him off.




You go girl. Proud of you <3 Thanks for sharing Jackie 🙂 x


ABSOLUTELY. That’s my situ right now. He’s mixing up love with trauma and he’s throwing it back at me, when I’m giving him everything. The hurt can only stop with me. It’s so f***ing painful because I love him like crazy.


Once again, thank you for writing such an awesome blog post. You have helped so much and I really admire that you have shared so much of yourself. I have read so many of your posts and they have helped me to realise what I deserve. The last experience I had with a guy was horrible and it made realise how little I value myself. We weren’t in an official relationship, it felt like it was an almost relationship because I was never going to be his official girlfriend. I realise now that I gave him so much power/ I put him on a pedestal. I took his minuscule crumbs for a loaf of bread, but won’t let that happen again. I feel so much stronger. Thank you!!!

P.S. I would really appreciate it if you could write a post about almost relationships. When you aren’t an official couple but you have dated for quite a while and it feels like you are.

Keep up the good work!

Becca Bea



Hi Becca Bea! Thank YOU so much for the love, sisterhood & support 🙂 I love that topic and will definitely write about it soon! All my love to you sister xxxxx


Agree!! Please write a post about almost relationships! I was also in one for 6 months. Everything we did was so couple-y and we acted like boyfriend/girlfriend but he didn’t want to put a label on it. Commitment-phobe and emotionally unavailable and so indecisive. A man child.


LOVE this topic and will definitely write a post soon 🙂 Promise! XX


I love your blog so very much. I really cannot thank you enough.


Thanks Dana! You made my day 🙂 XO


“True love will always seem vanilla to those with low self esteem.”

Holy gut-punch, Batman! So dizzying, I had to read it twice.

This is where I am at in my journey, 100%. The world is full of genuine nice guys, and the key to loving them back instead of friend-zoning them is self worth. Love you, and you’ll love those who love you.

I’d love to hear more from you on this Natasha. Your self worth posts are gold, and this is a concept that needs to be hammered home because I think many of us are confused in where to even start.

Thank you as always!


YES! Thank you so much for sharing Sara! Happy it helped and I definitely have more in the works with this topic 🙂 xx


After everything I’ve put myself through, this is yet another one of your and probably the most constructive advice/fact that hit home with me. You are so very absolutely right.
Three long and failed relationships later, with the last one being the biggest and what I thought to be the true love of my life but then turned into the worst, most excruciating heartbreak of my life. Many months later, with the support of my friends, this blog and other info on the internet, I finally allowed myself to accept it all as a major lesson that I needed to learn in order to finally wake up and smell the coffee.
I now know that I could blame those men all I want and it will not change anything. It is I who has to change and this post is once again, spot on for what I needed to hear (read). The “love of my life” who stonewalled me finally contacted me, something I’ve been waiting for and craving, but this time, I saw through his lies and bs and in the end I blocked him. The true love of my life has to in fact and first be – me. Time to heal and then we’ll see. To find ourselves facing crossroads can be scary at first but I think it can turn into a wonderful, life changing opportunity.
You helped me in so many different ways but finding clarity was the most impactful and useful one.
Thank you once again Natasha, you are amazing!


Michelle, I am in tears. Thank you so much for taking the time to share. You are appreciated, valued, loved and understood. I’m happy that the post helped and honored to have played a part in your healing and realizations. All my love to you soul sister – so happy for and proud of you 🙂 You go girl. XO


Hi, Michelle,
Your comment was as beautiful as Natasha’s post. I am feeling strength from you both. I, too, just walked away and blocked my ex who returned. I love him but deserve more. I’m currently lost, but I know thanks to Natasha, that this quiet, painful state is right where I need to be to grow.


You are brilliant, Natasha. Thank you. Just, thank you.


Right back at you Robin ? Thank you for your love, support, and for being a part of this tribe. xox

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