Limerence is something I’ve experienced as far back as I can remember. If you haven’t heard of Limerence before, you’re not alone. I didn’t know there was an actual name for this kind of compulsory weakness/obsession/lovesick addiction that I thought was uniquely my own up until a few years ago.
What is Limerence?
The term was coined in 1979 by psychologist Dorothy Tennov in her book Love and Limerence: The Experience of Being In Love. Tennov describes limerence as “an involuntary interpersonal state that involves an acute longing for emotional reciprocation, obsessive-compulsive thoughts, feelings, and behaviors, and emotional dependence on another person.”
Limerence convinces us that the object of our desire is the only source there will ever be as far as our happiness, purpose and emotional oxygen go. With limerence symptoms, you will feel dependent on the other person for emotional survival and devastated to the point of paralysis if these feelings are not reciprocated. Daydreams and fantasies about the other person are incessant and as you get deeper into your dependence, the fantasies can become elaborate and extreme. Your entire emotional ecosystem is outside of your control.
The funny thing is, none of this sounds strange or out of the ordinary to me whatsoever. This is exactly how I would describe the way I felt and behaved in every relationship when I was younger.
Gloria Estefan is one of my favorite singers. I grew up listening to her music because my Mom is a fan. I was listening to one of her most popular songs in the car today and realized that the song should be called “Limerence” or “The Limerant,” instead of “Anything For You” because it describes what it’s like to be in stages of limerence perfectly.
Here are some of the lyrics:
Though you’re not here
Since you said we’re through
It seems like years
Time keeps dragging on and on and forever’s been and gone
I’ll play your games
You hurt me through and through
But you can have your way
That I don’t care and I don’t need you
And though you’ll never see me cryin’
You know inside I feel like dying
In spite of it all
I’ve learned so much from you
You made me strong
Someone who’ll care and never leave you
But if that someone ever hurts you
You just might need a friend to turn to
I’ll give you up
If that’s what I should do
To make you happy
As far as emotional investments go, limerence is something that you’ll never be able to afford but that’s what television, obnoxiously unrealistic social media accounts, love songs, and romantic movies are for. They thrive on making you feel like you can and you will – against all odds – when it comes to romantic love.
Even if those odds defy reality, logic, and require the absence of a brain and dignity to beat.
The problem is, your psyche isn’t wired to produce the kind of currency for that level of bullsh*t cost. Only your fears, delusion, and the story you tell yourself can produce that kind of psychological Monopoly money.
Limerence is the Fool’s Gold of true love.
It’s the romantic love drug that pop culture perpetuates the addiction to. This starts at a young age when we are at our most impressionable and it continues until we become so hopeless in our romantic addiction, we start to confuse love with limerence.
For me, it started with fairy tales as a kid. I LOVE all of the fairy tales and everything romantic. You name it… Romantic comedies, tv shows, love stories, love songs – cheesy, beautiful, sad, etc… I’m a sucker for it all. The only difference now is, they are no longer used as a marker for comparing my life to, nor do they set any kind of standard for my relational expectations, wants, and needs.
Romantic love that’s expressed in pop culture is there for your entertainment, not to use as an outline for the script of YOUR life.
You’d never watch Mission Impossible and because of that, decide to jump out of the next car you were a passenger in and leap into oncoming traffic – convinced that you were going to carry out an impossible mission… would you?
So why do we continue to jump out of the relational cars, thinking we can emotionally survive the oncoming traffic?
Limerence has cost me my emotional and physical health, wealth, happiness, and reputation. It has also cost me relationships with friends and family who became burnt out by its effects.
“You’re going to ruin your life, Natasha. If you don’t stop this, you’re going to wake up in a padded room wearing a straight jacket one day, or you’ll end up in jail or with some terrible disease from all this stress or you’ll end up dead. It’s okay to be a romantic, but not one that’s THIS hopeless and obsessed and unhinged. You have to stop.”
Friends of mine told me this, family members told me this, the private investigator I tried to hire but thankfully couldn’t afford told me this (I don’t need to say any more about this. Those that get it, get it), and my gut said this to the shameless private investigator I had become. I can think of another time in college that my English professor told me something along these lines after reading a poem I wrote. I remember the poem being very good but it must have made him concerned about my emotional well-being.
I haven’t felt Limerence in a while. I’ve been clean for 6 years now. And whenever I feel a limerent hit, I’m now able to deactivate it.
Addiction is hard. Love addiction is harder because unlike other addictions, it’s often cloaked in terms that sound so much prettier and because of that, it gets romanticized instead of seriously addressed.
“Hopeless romantic” and “love addict” sound a lot less severe than “Heroin addict” or “Alcoholic.”
Going no contact with your addiction is the toughest breakup you will ever have to endure. You can’t just read a book or a blog post about emotional sobriety and suddenly finish it indefinitely sober.
The key is to first identify the symptoms of Limerence and then understand the difference between Limerence and True Love so that you can rework, redefine, rewire, cleanse, and ultimately… FLUSH.
Signs & Limerence Symptoms
You may be suffering from Limerence if…
- The most insignificant and short interactions – direct or indirect – with the other person give you such an intense high that you continue to fantasize, obsess over, and think about it for many days.
- Your days revolve around the tiniest crumb of interaction (direct or indirect), that limerence inflates to a loaf.
- Your feelings are more rooted in obsession and possession than they are in true connection, honesty, mutuality, intimacy, commitment, and reality.
- You exaggerate and glorify the other person’s few positive characteristics to the point of red and pink flag blindness.
- You become so tunnel-vision hyper-focused on the other person that you lose track of your own life.
- EVERYTHING that the other person does/doesn’t do and everything that you find out/don’t find out is given a meaning that perpetuates the limerence in some way.
- You find yourself fantasizing about the future even though there is no relationship.
- You experience physical symptoms – Extreme anxiety, trembling, nausea, and in some cases, paranoia around the other person.
- You replay every conversation and interaction again and again. No matter how insignificant or minute.
- You try to find a deeper meaning in everything the person does and doesn’t do.
- Your thoughts about the other person are uncontrollable.
- You fear rejection over everything and it feels like the only way to deal with the rejection would be suicide because the other person is your only lifeline.
- As the circumstances become more hopeless or obnoxious, your feelings become more intense.
- You feel irrationally jealous and possessive even if the relationship is nonexistent.
- You feel a magnetic pull toward them. You’re convinced that this person is your only soulmate and you were born to love them – even if you barely know each other.
- You idealize their bad qualities as much as you do their good ones.
- You experience intense mood swings – high highs and low lows in regard to the other person and your self-worth.
Love vs. Limerence
It’s difficult to differentiate between love and limerence, especially in the beginning stages of a relationship when both overlap.
If you are in a stage of limerence, your relationship will be more about securing the other person’s validation and affection than it will be about truly connecting, mutually caring, and earning their love, trust, and respect.
- Although they both start out the same, true love will level out and continue to feel gratifying, safe, peaceful, trustworthy, reliable, comfortable, empowering and peaceful on both ends.
- Limerence will continue to intensify until it starts to hurt on one or both sides.
- Limerence cannot survive in an environment of true love. True love gets better, deeper, more intimate and more connected with time. Instead of mixing signals or playing games to make the other party jealous, both people bond through their empathy, mutual connection, interests, and experiences. Limerence is a constant, involuntary struggle with anxiety and unwanted worry about the other person.
- True love is LINEAR. Limerence is triangulation at its finest – It’s always you, the other person, and some other obstacle. This is why Johnny Cash sings “because you’re mine, I walk the line.” – NOT the triangle. True love is linear.
- RECIPROCATION. True love is the best feeling in the world. It doesn’t need to expect any kind of reciprocation because when you’re experiencing true love, you’re too busy loving one another to count relational cards. Limerence requires the expectation of reciprocation… More often than not from a bankrupt, unknowing, unavailable, or disconnected source.
Limerence Treatment So That You Can Attract and Enable True Love
My own limerence was disabled the moment I realized what it all boiled down to for me: Representation.
The denominator of limerence is fantasy. This is why the image of the other person was always so glorified and exaggerated.
This is also why I was unable to see who the other person truly was and what our relationship (or lack thereof), truly meant. There was no mutual limerence.
Fantasy is the ultimate form of escapism that cannot survive without the oxygen of representation.
My “aha!” moment came when I realized that it wasn’t about the actual guy I was obsessed with at ALL.
It was about what he meant to me, what he represented.
- A totally clean slate and a new beginning.
- The opportunity to redefine myself, my life, and prove haters wrong.
- That I was not as ugly and worthless as I felt.
- A real, enviable life.
- Invalidating the painful experiences and hurtful people in my childhood.
The list goes on.
And 10 times out of 10, what we allow other people to represent is the very thing we are too scared to resurrect within ourselves, instill, and pursue.
Build it within yourself FIRST. As you progress, you will become more protective of that progress than you will EVER be interested in hanging onto a person who’s only glowing because YOU are shining YOUR light on them.
Limerence will make you feel like the only light you have is a spotlight.
You were not born with a spotlight to shine on others. You are pure light. You emanate it.
Ask yourself what the people that you obsess over REPRESENT and build that home for and within yourself.
Building homes in other people is the fastest way to end up on the relational streets, locked out of a home that you built.
The only way Limerence will ever stand a chance is if you dim your own light enough to make room for it.
It’s time to amplify. For good.
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